Archive for June, 2009

One Day at a Time

June 29, 2009

This weekend has been a tough one. Not for any typical reason, nothing went “wrong.” I just felt laced with doubts about myself and my plan of action for my future, and got frustrated with what feels like a vicious cycle of inaction. I feel stuck, with my hands tied.

Colin was generous with his time this evening, allowing me to vent to him, while I could tell he was becoming increasingly frustrated with my excuses. Without meaning to do so, I was shooting down every helpful idea and suggestion he was offering. He was an exceptional sounding board, though, and brought up a lot of very valid points that I need to look into and assess. 

I don’t have answers, but I do have a lot to think about right now, and I need to come up with a very detailed plan and put it into action so that I gain forward momentum again. It’s when things become stagnant that I lapse into these moods and start to doubt myself. I know that there’s a lot I can accomplish, I just need to find a way to focus on a particular goal as a start point and not let myself get distracted by all the other things that I’d like to do along the way. It’s just not possible to do everything at once, and I have to remind myself of that from time to time and learn how to prioritize all over again.